#legit thought i queued this

[flowerpetalprincess]

Merry Whumpmas || Day 8; Bedridden

This... was new.

Whumpee woke to warmth, comfort. A cozy bed and fresh clothes, covering her freshly dressed wounds.

She was expecting more pain, more punishment, but this wasn't either of those. She had woken up naturally after a full nights rest, sun streaming through the window, and a glass of water on the table beside her.

It was hard to believe in kindness after such trials, but whoever had placed her here didn't seem to have ill intent.

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Mizuki was the recipient of the wheel this time, and while I do love myself some angst and whump, I figured I'd do something nice for once.

I do need to focus more on the 'comfort' aspect of hurt/comfort, as I struggle with that a lot, and this was nice to draw.

If I wasn't in such a rush for a backlog, I'd definetely work more on this though. Alas, daily art means some corners are cut :(

Merry Whumpmus everyone!

Prompt List

Please do not steal, repost, or alter in any way.

[akkivee]

something i like about stage canon is that with the sasasama duet from track 5, it lends itself to the assumption that after their break up the next time samatoki saw sasara was thru radio as he climbed up to stardom and it validates my hc that media was how samatoki found out sasara was just fine without him lol

[sunlightfeeling]

hands on hips contest on the mifune fune~

aww…mifune lost 😞

Der Schwarm / The Swarm: Episode 8 (2023)

[maximumhideoutpatrol]

I lived bitch

Definitely requires context. Since 2018 I have had what I've been followed by what I've deemed a March Curse, and for a while it was of increasing Badness each year:

9th grade: "friend" outed me to her parents (who was my soccer coach and friends with my parents) various fall out and social problems associated to that

10th grade: Almost the whole month my dad's out of town for work, had a meeting with my pastor and a friend bc pastor was leaving after an affair scandal (it was a Whole Thing), my mom had a mystery illness for a month (hospitalizations, etc), continued grief from a sudden family death. Extras: My brother and I had tech and performances for a ballet, and I ran the county orchestra festival my school hosted almost single-handedly

11th grade: Obligatory start of Covid mention, but for flavor in the week leading up to that I found out a family friend and bandmate had taken pictures down my shirt the year prior, my counselor was a dick about it and legitimately traumatized me in his response, had a migraine for the first time, started to get regular panic attacks

12th grade: best friend went awol for 38 days (started in mid-february, hit hard and had mental health repercussions), the beginning of the end of high school and realizing how much I had actually lost in the past year, burnout hit hard, anniversaries of the past marches started to become a Problem

Freshman at college: had a feeling that ants were crawling over my body every night for a full week (no explanation), found out I was severely anemic (and had a Classic American Healthcare System Moment), got COVID (despite masking everywhere I went), came back to the ballet company for the first time (emotional roller coaster), started to realize that college wasn't working for me

AND THEN THIS YEAR

NOTHING

THE CURSE FUCKING BROKE

The power trip I went on when I realized at like 8pm that it was March 31st was Wild, it was crazy windy and I went on a walk and yelled at and cursed the universe (I guess?) that I fucking won. I stayed up to watch the countdown to April 1st, had a full on celebration by myself, and cried for a solid 30 minutes when the day changed, I cannot put words to how I felt, it was crazy.

[wehangout]

Another @shamelessdvdcommentary requested by the wonderful @suzy-queued with questions made by the amazing @callivich! This one is for Slick back My Hair (You know the Devil's in There)! These are a lot of fun, so hit me up if you want to see this for a different fic 😘

Give us some stats - (when you wrote it, word count, how long it took to finish, is it a one-shot/multi-chapter, etc)

Wrote it in 2015! It’s a long one-shot, and I think my second ever shameless big bang.

What was the initial inspiration for your story?

Okay. Took me a minute. I knew this was inspired by a one-shot I wrote for GW2015 that has since been taken down, but I also knew the one-shot was inspired by something and it took forever to go back and figure it out. Anyway, the initial one-shot was inspired by the Day 7 theme of “Imagine Your OTP – go to the website http://otpprompts.tumblr.com/ and choose a prompt!”. I don’t recall what the exact prompt was (I think digging a grave together), BUT apparently I still have the one-shot posted here on tumblr if you wanna read it! So, yeah, the Big Bang fic was inspired by this one-shot which was inspired by GW2015. Phew. That was a novel on its own

If the story is written from a character’s POV, why did you choose this character?

Mickey. Because I am me.

What was your favourite scene to write?

I’m not sure, but reading back, I really like the scenes with side characters as assasins. Sheila, Jimmy, and Angela. Fun stuff.

How did you come up with the title?

Ugh. This was back when iTunes was a thing lmao. I basically went through all my music, picking out songs I thought might fit the fic’s plot, then went through the lyrics.

Are there any little moments or references you hope readers will notice?

Two! I had fake IDs with the names John Foley and Axel McClane which is a reference to John McClane and Axel Foley – Die Hard and Beverly Hills Cop respectively. And I also had this line “Two inches to the right and it would’ve hit your fucking heart, Ian.” "Two inches to the left and it would have missed me completely” which was reference to The Mighty Ducks. Only one reader picked up on these lol.

Was there anything you struggled to write? If so, how did you overcome this?

The Terry fight scene. And, honestly, I just pushed through it.

Favourite line in the story?

Okay, the “My hero” continuation, but also, back in 2015, I wrote, word for word, “Knew you’d come.” I mean, it’s Ian saying it, but obvi why it’s a fave lmao

What are you most proud about in the story? (plot, characterisation, dialogue, twist/cliffhanger, etc)

I wouldn’t call them twists, but the little surprises that turn up along the way – Sheila being a badass, the texter being Mandy.

Are there any ‘behind the scenes’ info you’d like to share - e.g. what’s going on in a characters head in a certain scene or how you came to write a certain line?

At the end, where Mickey goes to save Ian. Ian’s “goodbye” is legit. Dude was sure they (at least he) was going to die.

Reading back the story now, is there anything you’d change or add?

It’s very quick. I’d probably add more depth to it. (also the title shh)

Would you ever write a sequel to this story?

I’ve considered it, but one half of the dynamic duo gets taken in this one. What other plot could there be?

Are there any ‘easter eggs’ in your story - e.g. references to other stories you’ve written, a trope you often use etc?

I think I did the big Oh moment in this, along with a few others. I think that’s about it.

If you’ve chosen your most popular story, are you surprised by the popularity?

This is definitely not my most popular, lol, but I appreciate the love it’s received!

Were you nervous or excited to post this story?

Oh, always excited

Did you have a beta or a friend who helped you as you wrote?

I did! Again, this was back in 2015 when my pal Ella @hubrisandwax was still around. We had similar time zones, so we’d Skype and write at night (poetry, bitch), and have our own little sprints. She was my cheerleader and beta!

Anything else you’d like the readers to know about the story?

I know this is an Ian and Mickey romance, but I actually preferred the scenes after Ian was taken. Getting into Mickey’s head when he’ll do literally anything to get Ian back? Including torture and murder his own brother? That shit was fun.

[chemistry-in-sports]

release the cowboy hat rankings (should u so desire)

Omg thank you for asking and I DO desire. The problem is not all of the drivers have worn cowboy hats this weekend so I can't do the comprehensive cowboy hat rankings that I yearn to do.

Imagine if Lewis had worn a cowboy hat with that all denim fit...i know that would have been an automatic P1. Alas I imagine it has been in Lewis' contract for years now that he doesn't have to wear stupid hats under any circumstances.

And obviously our greatest cowboy hat wearing driver was taken from us but we won't linger on that.

So anyway, we work with what we have!

P1, as already revealed:

WHY is Carlos is such a hot cowboy. It doesn’t make sense, he’s not adventurous dresser! He loves a button down! He loves sport! But we cannot argue with the facts. The hat color was designed specifically to enhance big brown doe eyes. The long-for-him hair is designed specifically to look sexy and shaggy and curl slightly at ends under the hat. I don't know. Why is he putting his hand on his head in that coquettish manner. Who taught him that!

P2:

Okay, I think this might be from a previous season, but this is very good imo. The sunglasses, the belt in the same color as the hat, the jeans, the plain white shirt -> it looks legit fashionable and not like a costume. The football might be confusing matters a little but it’s just part of the vibe I guess and it’s working!

P3:

Unfortunately it is nearly impossible to find a picture of Max wearing any hat that isn't his Red Bull hat (he's probably wearing it underneath this one) but I came across this, which i know is not this weekend, but I decided to include it because look how cute he looks. Look at his face! P3!

P4:

I am surprised that Charles in a cowboy hat does not really move me. Maybe it’s the Ferrari hoodie. We should get him in some leather chaps and see if that helps. You know, I am sure Ferrari has a homoerotic video of him riding a horse or getting lassoed by Carlos queued up somewhere, perhaps that will change things for me. Whatever, he’s still P4 bc he has a perfect face and when he put on the hat he said he was like “a proper cowboy!” so what can you do

P5:

I actually think the whole look with the race suits and the boots is surprisingly good, and I like how Esteban has his hat pulled down so you can’t see his eyes — I think that’s how you’re supposed to wear a cowboy hat! But they look soooo awkward there together, they look like a couple who is preparing to try some kind of cowboy themed sexual role play in an attempt to save their marriage but neither of them are really that into it

P6:

Speaking of role plays…I think Lando having thoughts about Oscar in that boot/shorts combo but that’s not what we’re doing here.

Lando’s head is simply too big for this look. The hat needs to be pulled down more but he can’t because of his ridiculous giant head. Idk I think that’s the problem. He looks cute! But also very silly. I think the hat he wore last year in the video where he was singing Taylor Swift looked good -- maybe the darker color or maybe it was just a better fit.

Also Lando always looks like he’s slightly mortified to be alive and I think the cowboy hat requires a kind of confidence/commitment to the bit that he doesn’t have here.

P7:

Now here is a man who always commits to the bit, and he does get points for that -- George has never met a silly video that he won't say yes to -- but he’s last in my rankings because…well, look at the picture. That face was made for Tommy Hilfiger roll neck jumpers and long expensive coats not cheap cowboy hats branded with the Good Morning America logo. I'd be interested in seeing him in a darker hat with a little more weight to it - I think it needs to be more fashion than costume for George.

I know other people must have worn cowboy hats this weekend but these are the ones I saw! Please inform if there are great hat wearers that I missed!

[noagskryf]

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Hello everyone, I'm Noag!

Please use they/them or hulle pronouns to refer to me.

I'm Afrikaans, I live in England, and I'm in upper sixth doing my A-Levels. I do biology, geography, and maths.

Most of the posts will be in English but sometimes I will post in Afrikaans!

My other interests are cats, Taylor Swift, disability, Pokémon, memes, and Christianity (I'm a Christian!) I reblog a lot of random stuff.

I'd love to interact with people so feel free to ask me stuff!!! Anything from my fave food or tv show to deep philosophical questions.

Don't call me transmasculine or transfeminine. I am neither. I am transneutral if you insist on calling me trans-something.

I do not disclose the gender i was assigned at birth because you're all assholes. I do not agree with TMA/TME language because it's so often used to reenforce the sex binary. I am perisex (not intersex) though.

I don't engage with posts or asks asking for donations or money. I am not in a position where I can donate money or check the source to make sure it's legit or that I can really support the cause.

I'm almost 18. I don't really care if 18+ people interact tbh, just bear in mind that I'm only 17.

Only DNI is nsfw blogs or if you support AI image generation.

If you are blocked, it is most likely because you are an NSFW blog (no judgement, just not for me) or use AI image generation (heavy judgment from me.)

Half the things that pop up on my blog are queued, btw. If i reblog one of ur posts 3 months after you made it, i most likely queued it. My queue is majority reblogs of fandom stuff or pretty pictures

Profile image by alana_art.s on instagram!

Common tags on this blog

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[anjukurada-fanfic-rec-blog]

*Quick note! I am using several different fan-art in this post, and although I tried to get the Watermarks/signatures/names of the artists in most of them, there are one or 2 that I was uncertain of because they were just posted without credits somewhere else and I couldn't find the posts, so if anyone knows that artists, feel free to let me know!*

Hello and good morning! I am in search of some Helluva Boss Fanfiction recommendations! I have read so many lately (and I still have about 27 queued up to read) BUUUTTT! There are topics and themes that I am craving that I haven not been able to really find, no matter what tags I use to search, so I wonder if anyone can give me some recs! Even if I've read them before! First and foremost, I am a huge Moxxie fan, and as a Whump lover, I enjoy seeing the little guy in peril. Injured, abused, terrified, manipulated, anxiety/panic attacks, fighting for his damn life! All of it! So any good recs for that would be lovely!

(Credit to Silentzound on Tumblr: https://sandraharissa.tumblr.com/post/694554708256423936/striker-vs-moxxie )

I have read MANY Striker vs Moxxie fics, and even a few Moxxie and Valentino (Hazbin Hotel) fics, but I very rarely come across a GOOD Moxxie vs Crimson fic that isn't either very OOC or that doesn't have Crim "Assaulting" Moxxie as a child, like... Nah, that's just not for me. Makes me really uncomfortable. But we see that Crim is able to hurt and terrify his poor son like no other, and I absolutely LOVE it, and would love to see some more of it. Like, legit, I am excited for his reappearance in the show because he made it pretty clear what his intentions are, and I am excited for that final showdown! So, basically, anything with Crimson terrifying, abusing, manipulating, hunting/stalking, hurting, basically being a total P.O.S dad to Mox. Or hurting his "family" as a way to get at Mox. BONUS POINTS if Mox finally gets to stand up to his dad properly, once and for all. And some MUCH needed Comfort afterwards!

(First pic credit to Nokurla Ams Dub on Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/@nokurla/community

Second pic Credit to rqlefthandy on Twitter: https://twitter.com/Rqlefthandy

Third pic credit to TsukiYamaKaras on Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/tsukiyamakaras/ )

I have also developed a soft spot for some Alessio and Moxxie fics. Either with Alessio caring for Mox after his father's abuse or neglect, being the only form of (albeit reluctant) comfort for the child after his mother passes, things like that. Also enjoying the thought of Moxxie returning home or being kidnapped and looking for Alessio to help him, begging him to save him or stop Crim, but Alessio either guiltily refuses or doesn't step in until things have already gone too far.

(Credits unknown, please help! )

I have also come across a collection of Moxxie and Blitzo bonding fanfictions by Cranberryfriend on AO3 called "Blitzo and Moxxie, sometimes friends" and it made me want MORE of their bonding. More of Blitzo being an ass until Moxxie cries, only to realize he took the "joke" too far. More helping with panic attacks, more protection, more talking. MORE SCENES where they develope a relationship, get to know each other more, hurt each other and help each other, because I crave that from them!

Link to the fanfiction: https://archiveofourown.org/works/31254803

I also saw a really fucking cute one where Stolas comes to invite Blitzo to a musical, but Blitzo doesn't want to go (he's having a bit of a mood). Moxxie sees the tickets and gets excited that Stolas gets to see that particular show, so Stolas offers him the tickets so he and Millie can go, but Millie is busy with family, so they both go together! For the life of me, I cannot find the story again, so I don't have a link... BUUUT

I really want more of them bonding! So, all that being said, if you have any recommendations, please let me know!!!

[bamababygirl7]

I haven’t been very active lately and not sure if I will be for a while other than maybe queuing some posts. I just really wanted to make a friend appreciation post. Honestly without these people I would have fallen completely apart in the past couple of days.

@blueedana I don’t even know where to begin. I have only known you for a few months, but I can share things with you before I share them with anyone else. You make me feel safe and are there for me and offer to hurt people for me when they hurt me and I know you legit would lol. I honestly don’t know if I would have made it through Thursday especially without you. Thank you for being such an amazing friend. And of course I’m so thankful for our goofy shared bestie @dominant-dominion and his beautiful wife @submissiveebrat It is not very common for me to become super vulnerable and share and reach out for help when bad things happen, but y’all were there and helped me more than you can ever imagine.

And I can’t forget my other besties… @c4c4ine and @missathesiren I didn’t get super in depth about the situation but any time one of us is hurting y’all are quick to offer support and words of encouragement and to bring the violence lol I love y’all so much for that.

And last but definitely not least (sorry if this ruins your reputation lol) @mister-s0013 I don’t even know where to begin and my post would be super long if I wrote even half of the reasons I’m so thankful to have you in my life. You are also one of the main reasons I made it through Thursday. Even though you were spending time with your son when I asked if you could talk cuz I was falling apart, you made time to talk to me and made me feel safe. I was def being a little stubborn cuz I was just exhausted but your concern was so sweet and genuine. You have made it super easy from the time we became friends to be vulnerable with you which is not something I usually am and I have shared things with you that I don’t share with others. I also know that without a second thought you would hurt anyone who hurts me. You help motivate me when I’m just not feeling motivation. You say the sweetest most comforting things and sometimes I think if I could just crawl up in your lap and get a big bear hug that would fix everything. Okay I’ll stop now. Totally kidding y’all he is really really really mean and scary 🙃🙂🙃

Ok. I’m done being emotional and mushy. 🙈🙈🙈 I just have so much going on in my head rn mostly not good but all of the good thoughts are about my friends. I seriously love y’all and couldn’t imagine my life without y’all.

[theiconicmeghanmarkle]

Fans queued to buy a hardback copy of the Duke of Sussex’s autobiography as it hit shelves at midnight.

Professor Chris Imafidon, chairman of the Excellence in Education charity, who was first in line and picked up three copies, said he wanted to hear the story “from (the) horse’s mouth”.

Sarah Nakana, a surveyor from Dulwich, said she had already downloaded the audiobook as she picked up a copy, saying she wanted to try to “get ahead of the British press and their narratives”.

“It will just be the public getting whipped into a frenzy of anti-Harry and Meghan-ness because that’s what sells – hate sells – they’re monetising hate,” she said.

She said: “When Harry was doing his book, I was like: ‘No I need to just know what his life has been because the British media tell me everyday: ‘This is what it is.’

“And I hardly hear from the guy but I hear from the British press, the royal rota, the royal experts but never from him directly.

“It was just very important for me as a historical record to hear about his life because he’s lived it and that’s why I’m here tonight. This is him, his words, ‘this is what I went through’.

“With the snippets that have been out, I love the honesty. ‘This is the good, the bad and the ugly, this is me. There is nothing hidden, there is nothing told over me.’”

I thought all those totally legit polls from the UK tabloids said that the British publish didn't want to read Harry's book.

[copperbadge]

Hey so… i donated a good amount to avatarpyler but they’re still reblogging the same post saying no one has donated yet. Are you sure they are legit?

I vet the people who go into Radio Free Monday as much as I'm able, but a lot of the time I don't know them personally -- I rely on the fact that we're a small community who know each other. I weed out the obvious scam artists, but I do also give the benefit of the doubt simply because the worst thing when you're already having to ask people for help is to then be made to show your credentials.

So, in this case, they were submitted anonymously, and I gave them a scroll because they were reblogging their fundraising post a lot. But they had some other content too and seem to have had a pre-existing fannish account, and nothing pinged me as overly suspicious. Constant reblogs of fundraising posts is not how I would go about the thing but it is common in some corners of Tumblr, I've seen it before. It's possible they queued those posts before you gave, or reblogged before they saw the donation, or they simply don't have the spoons to alter the post (I often see people whose fundraising posts are out of date simply because they've found it too exhausting to update).

But honestly, it's also possible they're running a scam. It's hard to know without actually knowing the person behind the tumblr. To my mind, if someone's running a tumblr scam then they probably need the money anyway, but they could also be trying to take advantage of a trusting community. If that's the case I'm really sorry. I try not to steer people wrong, but every so often one like that gets through. Probably your best bet to find out is to reach out and ask them if they got your donation, to make a connection and see what happens.

It sucks to feel like you've been taken advantage of, it sucks to feel that way when it happens to me and I pass it on to others. But I think it's also important to remember that when we give, we give with open hearts because we want to help. Someone else scamming you for a donation does not mean you didn't do a good thing: you gave to help someone you thought needed it. If they didn't need it, that's between them and whatever judgement awaits them.

So yeah -- you have all the data I have, nothing went into the RFM form that didn't make it into the RFM post. I can't say for absolute certain who they are or what they want or need, but unless I get pretty hard proof I err on the side of inclusion.

[leieryx]

LAZEREYES YOU

they / he

art #Lei art /// rambles #lei talks?!? /// queued or scheduled #queue

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ONLY ART SIDEBLOG. if you turn on notifications here i am blessing you with 3 shiney pennies thank you

new disco elysium sideblog because im insane.

if you want to know I am a intersex trans guy but bi-gender about it and kinda aro ace ? but a little gay? :) we stay funky and strange

moving up here because it’s relevant I do not reblog donation posts from people I don’t know or post asks from people I don’t know asking for donations in my inbox. it kinda sucks that’s how it has to be, but there’s no way I could independently vet them all and it feels like the situation with scammers has gotten a lot worse lately. I’m focusing on promoting the campaign of Salma, which you can see in my recent posts (here). Plus I’ll be honest I’m not popular. on sideblogs I will occasionally but it’s made with the assumption I haven’t done research. For this blog I make sure what I reblog is vetted. Please do not send me asks or messages about donation posts I will assume you are a scammer and block you. Please do your own research before donating especially when it’s on one of my side blogs. Ty

I don’t fuck with TMA/TME but I won’t usually block based on that alone because I know usually it’s from a different experience than mine, and I do value that experience. However some of you are rancid about it and if you think that all of transphobia is redirected transmisogyny, or that you can easily categorize people individually as TMA/TME in every case (especially by going ‘well no one but trans women are -actually- affected by this bigotry) just like. Don’t bother.

always tagging unreality and flashing lights, and I don't reblog things that can be guilt trippy or superstitious about reblogging (when I do, it's with #reblog bait) I also don't reblog donation posts unless I know you :( I know a good portion are probably legit, but. 'probably legit' is kind of an issue..

Edit edit: does not apply to verified Palestinians fundraising because verified.

On top of that im not someone with many followers at all so it's very unlikely to help anyways.

I don't tag most fandoms (unless im drawing art) (i want to change that eventually though) because my laptop is a potato (lovingly) and the thought of tagging every post with it's fandom makes me vaporize into dust. other times it's because i don't know them ;; sometimes im just enjoying whatever my mutuals are reblogin :] even if id on't know what its from lol

also ill try and tag anything i think needs tagging for warnings but stuff not mentioned here may not be universal. #bugs is for bugs and spiders though. you can send me an ask if you need something else tagged

basically it's a mess :] thumbs up. oh yeah also if you're gonna get mad at people who do not understand pop culture things DO NOT FOLLOW ME I LIVE UNDER A ROCK. LIKE HIM

[izzy-b-hands]

Things I've thought about this morning:

-How buying one of the pieces of merch I've found from a creator I like might actually be an accurate shirt for me to wear in general (I've stretched for today, and the bones feel so Squishy, as reference to it w/out explaining more bc. I don't want to.)

-How I used to not fully understand why people w/arthritis were rather grumpy to outright mean in the morning (including patients at the clinic and also my grandparents.)

After all, my joints sucked even when I was a kid and it hurt constantly (likely undx'd juvenile arthritis, got mentioned once by my doc back then and then never tested for so who knows), but so what?

Surely all joints for everyone are like this and age doesn't affect that in any way, so there was no need to feel instantly grumpy once you're awake for the day (though I do want to say that you still shouldn't be like. Taking out that feeling on other people, the patients and my grandparents were in the wrong for that in my opinion, but I give them more grace re: that now.)

-Guys. Age affects it. It hurts so much worse. I stretched extra this morning purely bc I'd rather the bones and joints feel Squishy and slightly less Painful than just Painful and Sort of Squishy. The sounds I'm making when I get up are even louder than they used to be. I think the neighbours can hear me sometimes. I don't like that.

Idk what the point of this post was going to be aside from me whinging abt my joints, so let's call the moral of this post:

Maybe I should ask for that merch for Xmas from my family since all we're doing to celebrate this year apparently is buying gifts. Legit, Mum has no idea if they're even meeting up back in ND. Wild. But I digress; they don't know what else to get me so. Squishy Bones Shirt.

If you can safely stretch/yoga/something along those lines at some point in your day, do it. I did yoga more when I was younger and I never should have let myself lapse with it. I'm back to doing more of it but even then. The bones. The joints. Save your bones and joints and just stretch a little. That or join me in making noises such as 'OUaghh' and 'ARghhfuck' and occasionally 'woahlksjifhdsafhnj god I think I'm stuck here' whenever you need to get out of bed/up from the floor/out of a chair/sometimes while just like. Standing there doing dishes or queuing or staring blankly at a wall Blair Witch-style.

[daz4i]

actually i AM gonna post abt this again. sorry

like when i say they make me feel like i'm in a story. i mean it

we started talking and immediately clicked. talked nonstop for days really

we both had relationships like that years before, but then paused that behavior bc we were young and it wasn't the healthiest, but now we were adults and knew better. it was the first one after that break for both of us

i avoided this behavior for awhile bc i knew it's not the healthiest but it felt so good when it happened. i (rightfully) feared the crash but at the time, the high was so worth it. and everything was going so smoothly too. things kept aligning just right all the time

every time i thought something is gonna come up or that i did something wrong and now it's all gonna blow up, they proved that i had no reason to worry, bc they let it slide immediately, even liked it

we kind of completed each other in every way. liked the same things and had a lot in common, but were opposites in enough things that we weren't TOO similar

i stopped worrying abt annoying them relatively early into the whole thing (usually it takes me months or even years, or i never stop at all. here it was maybe 2-3 weeks)

we became actually close right on their birthday. a small thing but you gotta admit if this was a story it'd be poetic as hell

every time they had a problem and i jokingly said i'm sending a spell their way to fix it, it passed after like 2 minutes. absolutely insane coincidence stuff

i mentioned this before. and this is gonna be embarrassing but. we met through, well, kin stuff lol. they kin chuuya, i kin dazai, we joked abt kindating etc. anyway my mental health was shit but they genuinely uplifted me a lot. they made me want to live for the first time in who knows how long, maybe ever. i think you can tell why i prefaced this story with that fact 🥲 embarrassing but real

and now this shit? 😭 another small thing but like. i make a post abt them bc now is generally around the time we started talking, and someone i follow queued a post from their blog and it posts right now?? they've been decativated for nearly a year HOW did this line up like that 😭

they unfortunately made me believe in the concept of soulmates :/ but as my friends (and mom. bc she saw me cry over the whole thing for days) said. if they cut me off and hurt me like that, they weren't ~the one~

and another thing that made me feel more like i'm in a teen movie is. i legit spent a day and a half in bed crying and barely doing anything else, after they cut me off. truly cliche stuff. actually that's a good way to put it - they made me feel like a cliche. still do when i think abt it a year later. it was a good thing at first, bad when it ended. i could make a movie abt this barely changing any detail and it'll be an average teen romantic comedy (except i'll have to add some happy ending there)

anyway let me finish all that by saying. who the fuck blocks someone on spotify 😭 dude...

(it's been a year and i got burned so badly from this whole thing that i seriously doubt i'll be able to love someone this much again. i need it to be an instant obsession to actually feel good about love, but i'll never be able to confidently go into any new relationship with that purpose because i'm just too scared things will hurt this much again. it's honestly so depressing lol 🥲 but what can ya do)

(i also became the most suicidal i've ever been since lol. probably bc of how big the drop was. it still hasn't gone away. part of why i see no point in life is bc of that previous paragraph. so.)

[oicuperp]

ignore my ask I didnt see you queued that legit thought you were pulling an all-nighter

me and my dumbass 😭💔

BWASDHKAJSDHASJDKH i have the sleep schedule of a grandpa i would DIE trying to pull an allnighter BASDJAHSK dw im awake now !!!!

[all-rock-and-roll-is-homosexual]

I don't think I was around when you met Suede so could you tell me the story please?? What was Brett/the band like???

So I only just got back about a week ago from seeing Suede in the UK - I saw them four times while there in Bexhill, Bristol, Manchester and Leeds.

I brought along an old Coming Up era tour program to get signed so a portion of my interactions were based around that. I talked to all of them briefly for that but my biggest interactions were with Brett and Neil.

Simon was the first one to sign the program and all of them had comments about it except for Brett who will basically just sign anything you put in front of him without much question.

So the reactions to the program are basically this:

(In Bexhill)

Simon: Wow! This is really old!

Brett: (signed and handed it back without saying anything)

(in Bristol)

Me: Hi, Mat! I have something really old for you to sign. Simon's already made a comment on it.

(hands it over)

Mat: Wow, this is old. Am I in this? Where am I? (immediately flips to his page)

Me: There you are!

Mat: Do you have a pen? (borrows a marker off another person queued up out front, signs then hands it back)

Me: Thank you!

He went inside and then a short time later Brett came over to say hello to the small group of us queued up out front

At this point I didn't really say anything because he'd already signed my program so I just wanted to be near him and see what was going on dfghjk and then

Brett: Oh, I like those. (points)

Me: (only just realizing he's talking to me - panics and looks at my hands) What, my bracelets?

Brett: No, your gloves.

Me: Oh, thank you. They're nice and warm.

(pauses because he also has a pair of black leather gloves with him and is also wearing a leather bomber jacket)

Me: Oh hey, we match!

Brett: (pauses, studying me) Oh yeah. There's the gloves and the gloves and the jacket and the jacket. (jokingly- faux hurt) I thought I was the only person in the world who wore black leather gloves.

and because I'm a dumbass the only response I could think of was to play off of that

Me: (Nodding as if I understand his hurt completely) Oh, of course. Naturally.

After the show I was able to get Neil to sign the program and I think he just had another comment about it being old.

I also got a selfie with Brett and I felt so embarrassed and self conscious all I could do was just keep apologizing.

(In Manchester)

I stopped Richard on the way to soundcheck and had him sign the program

Richard: Oh my God, an actual relic!

(Watching him sign in a daze)

Richard: Do you want your name on it?

Me: Hm?

Richard: Do you want your name on it?

Me: Oh, yes!

Richard: What is it?

Me: Rhys

Richard: How do you spell that? R-H-

Me: R-H-Y-S, thank you!

(and finally, in Leeds)

I figured I should have something else for them to sign and I'd swapped CDs with @brettyimages so I brought along the copy of Autofiction she gave me and I guess I forgot to say anything when I handed it to Neil because I was so stunned. BUT

Neil: (flashing an extremely charming smile) is this for me?

Me: (feigning indignance) No, it's mine!

At this point another queue goer came over: Have you heard it?

Me: (thinking this is hilarious) Have you heard it?

Neil: (deadpan as he signs) No.

Me: (also extremely deadpan) Oh, you should. It's really great.

Neil: (hands it back) Of course I've heard it. What, do you think I'm in Westlife?

I was very confused about this because I don't know if he really thought I didn't think he'd listened or what but I thought it was really funny all the same. That Westlife comment fucking killed me. AND HIS SMILE. Being on the receiving end of that legit gave me butterflies.

In all, I'd say my interactions with them were great and they were all very nice 🖤